I've gotta be honest, I'm really struggling to find stuff to write about. In fact, all I can think of to write about is not being able to think of stuff to write about! In a way, it's a positive thing. This blog has always been about my progress along a steep learning curve; discovering new aspects to trading, discussing potential ideas and theories and sharing my thought processes and the anguish and the failures. Now, it appears that I don't really have any of that to write about. I feel as though I've found my style, crafted a comfortable strategy and discovered all I need to know about trading. Of course, I'm not suggesting I've cracked trading and it will all be smooth sailing from now on. There's still plenty I need to work on to improve and maintain, and long term consistency is still not achieved but is there anything for me to learn about that I have yet to grasp?
Lately, it seems that I read other blogs or find out about a new trading book or financials quote, and it's all just covering old ground. I occasionally will want to add my thoughts to a discussion (usually regarding value!) but then stop myself as I get that uneasy feeling of de ja vu. I feel as though I've done my apprenticeship years, put in the hard graft, passed my theory exams and am now out in the big, wide world, where I have to put all I've learnt into practice and make money.
The problem for this blog is that it's not really that interesting to read about or to write about, week after week of steady progress. Trading like I am doing right now, in essence, is boring. There's no rollercoaster ups and downs, no depths of despair, no intense highs, no soul-searching, nagging questions and raging internal turmoil. It's just plodding along, making small amounts with insignificant, unexciting trades. Very few massive greens and no massive reds at all, to rave about in glorious technicolour. And the ridiculous, sloppy, unprofessional errors just aren't there to force me to put finger to plastic to rid myself of the burden of shame.
So the question is, where do I go from here? I could talk about my trades in detail but that doesn't do anything for me. I already record what I do in detail on paper, so why would I want to regurgitate it via the keyboard? I don't make 'picks' either, as 90% of my trading is done in-play, and no point mentioning that as it would be pure after-timing. And as I've mentioned before, I won't post a daily P&L because I never look at it until the end of the week and sometimes even longer. In the year I've been blogging, I've discussed pretty much every aspect of trading there is to discuss and all my lingering questions I had were answered in the series of interviews I gave with other traders, bloggers and industry players.
I need to find a new angle, some new inspiration to write about, get the creative juices flowing. Until then, all I can say is that I'm doing well, resisting the urge to up those small stakes for now and genuinely, finally learning from all those mistakes I made during my school years. Of course, it's still possible I might lose the plot and go back to my old ways - then I'll have plenty to say!
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